Monday, August 27, 2007 08:58 p.m.
[OT][QUOTE=MelvinMint;2347147]but u can hate odex too.. cos unlike disney, they nv had god stuff to begin with, and to SIN while knowing that u are sinning.. its not good.. its like i stole while knowing god said not to steal... then lidat whatever i do dun blame me le[/QUOTE]
.......you typed this, and you typed your 'happy-to-be-Just-a-Freeloader' reply to my post on the other thread; and i wonder how the heck to tell you that imho you've just stuck the label on yourself alittle harder, added glue and coloured it in highlighter-yellow....?
Again, IMHO; Relentlessly Freeloading [u]with no intention of buying whatsoever[/u] [b]isn't[/b] harmless, mind. It's just one (rather large, but still only one) step away from the jokers who sell fansubs/ripped subbed dvdworks online.[/OT]
[s]Speaking of which, i haven't heard any crackdowns on .those. yet; they're still all over Y!Auctions and prolly eBay as well. I could care a tad less about the commercial productions ([quote]Audio: Japanese
Subtitles: English
Video Quality: DvD-ripped, very high quality[/quote]but having been even a meagre part of a fansub group before i get Very Cheesed seeing sh!t like[quote]Create from Fansub to VCD version) Japanese Spoken with English Subtitle [/quote] or [quote]Subtitle
English(ALL my animes will come with English if not otherwise stated)
Format
High quality fan subbed AVI in DVDs (TDK) playable on PC with DVD rom[/quote]
--benefit of the doubt for sellers that may be actually fansub groups 'spreading the word', they tend to not charge anything apart from the disk costs and sometimes postage And This is stuff one Cannot Get Anywhere Else. (iow langgar agnst c3ns0rshp b0r3d...)
Solitary Local Seller selling YYH, Bleach, FMA, Stellvia and-so-on fansub dvd-r's, stating that they're fansubbed by groups that he's quite obviously not part of? Go To Pluto lah, dammit. [[@ this seller: i can appreciate the underground stuff you bring in, but the mainstream, Licensed Stuff & Fansubs that Aren't Yours -- hey, karma in karma out, man. =_=" Have fun with your life, and good luck. Also, all those idols' dvd-rips' you're selling? You're leeching the careers from every one of those girls and their managements.
We all know how cutthroat-competitive things are in any media+entertainment industry, and Japan's obviously one of the tightest and toughest markets. Sure they're endless CM's to do and prductions seem nonstop, but what kind of message is going back to them, if all we do is leech? Who's going to be paying for the girls/guys you adore and drool all over if they get fewer jobs because they don't (seem to) sell?
(This carries over harder on the J-Rock/Music side, since these works .are. Directly linked to the sweat, brains, hearts & blood of the people themselves. )
'tche. Sorry leechers-only types, kinda do the fans and supporters a favour and stop calling yourselves fans if you refuse to do any proper supporting whatsoever. And stop complaining when you get busted for stealing.
...what? Call a spade a spade, man. =_="####
sagashite [crossposted to LJ]
Tuesday, July 13, 2004 01:54 a.m.
...and will everything be the same again? will things ever be the same again? when one's actions reach a point of no return... will there be another chance to look out on the morning's dawn? or is a sunrise lost unseen forever?
are eyes once opened never again to be closed? am i making a fatal mistake, have i taken one step too many? can i still stop and consider my path, or are the dark woods ahead to be my destined route? for the shadowed dirt path winds beneath thick branches so thickly grown together that the light i am familiar with grows so dim, so dim as to remove itself entirely from my sight. yet following this path's uncertainty i must be confident that i will see the light once more... stepping along the folorn stream of dry erosion, the loose sand and gravel beneath my boots maintain a sense of reality for me, as life goes on, an inevitable return to the real world. and yet to the left, and to the right, flora and fauna as i have never noticed for the brightness of day, such intrigues and newness of discovery.
were i to frolick in the company of such previously unknown sights, sounds, presences and beings, were i to do so yet never lose sight of my path, to renew myself and come clean once again into the light that once surrounded me, enriched my experience and my newfound delights... and yet, with the renewal of the light i fear the fading of the colours so rich while in the forest glade. one thinks, and realises that should the light be true sunlight, flora and fauna alike will flourish under it, and be the more healthy a growth for it, as the light be glorified in its illumination of such colour, texture and sights. if the light could be so forgiving on all my blemishes and disgrace... as it once was.
no, it never was, not really, yet was, for all this time the light allowed my shading beneath a structure of stone, a base over which a river broke its height, a waterfall cavern. and each time my faults surfaced, it was allowed, my retreat to the hollowed-out cove where water flowed down over as a curtain of clear liquid gauze, a shield to my ugliness, a rippling mirror that hid all detail and misled the eye. and if one were to come under pressuring, closely watched scrutiny, one's observer might see, for one instant, a rainbow -- the light's work, an art of penetration and reflection, refraction and projection, that the image received, the magnified colour of the light itself, through the water, dazzled the eye and drew all attention away from the nobody that dwelt cowering behind the curtain of the falling river.
in such a way have faults been concealed, turned a blind eye on, for the sake of friendship, of a camaderie that grew as the flow of a three-year-old river and its refeshing, rejuvenating source. yet would not shadow fall on the inner ruins of a fallen tower? for a tower has, in fact, broken in on itself, its supports failed at long last, walls crumbled to dust and stone, in its desolate pile. suffering from ill-maintenace, its wood long rotted yet repainted for appearances' sake, yielding the image of a firm perch worthy of a bright standard, rippling in the breeze. yet again have cracks shown through, yet again has rotted wood broken free of nails. but this time, it did not hold.
a fallen tower, an abandoned waterfall cave, a river one must find again... a dark wooded path that winds, and sunlight somewhere beyond.
is a broken vase replaceable? is a broken trust retrievable?
such questions must be answered, yet how... does one answer them?
i must first rebuild the tower... maybe one day i will see the light again.
the sound of silence, the beat of an empty shell. the tones of thought, with the voices of folorn whisperings from the past.
melancholy?
Wednesday, July 7, 2004 11:59 p.m.
2155
maybe that's it.
i'm not going to care anymore. i'm not going to care about myself anymore, or what i want. when did i become so weak? in one hand i hold food, the first thing i've eaten in close to ten hours. my hand is shaking almost visibly. my throat hurts, swallowing is a pain and anything that isn't close to soupy pulp rakes raw, so i must chew. even if chewing brings stars of discomfort and i've already bitten my lip, lightly for once. even if i have to kill myself doing this i will finish this
by 2230. 2245 i will finish my monday's tutorial and tmr's class prep. when was it i had a strong stomach? it feels like never. sitting prone and letting my fingers do the typing is almost comfortable, since i don't have to move anything save my eyeballs and wrist. straightening up hurts, using the mouse is bearable and anything louder than brother's 'closing' the door brings stars. i'm not going to settle for this anymore. i'm not going to let me pamper myself by avoiding discomfort, spoil myself for the sake of 'rest'. so what's a little food poisoning? i will not let me 'sleep it off' anymore. it wastes time, and that is something i have far too little of. what's a raw throat? the tissues will heal themselves, and the bile will remember that gravity owns it. along with everything else i eat. i will become stronger than this. i will be stronger than this. darren's phrase must have something to it, all in the mind -- i've used it before, against cold against hunger against many things and it worked. why didn't i use it earlier? because i was 'asleep'? dormant, autopilot? yet thinking well enough to post an apology, but not enough to realize how quiet my phone has been. and not remembering to inform after throwing, when it became apparent i wasn't going anywhere after all. i will overcome this nonsense. if i must stay silent tomorrow and eat porridge the whole week. i'm going to throw myself this mountain, and i'm going to climb it. starting at 2245, at 2230, starting now. steamed egg with ham bits go down easy, almost painlessly, neither of which this climb will be. i will draw out a determination from somewhere, a discipline i should have had, along time ago. don't spare me harsh words anymore. i've become soft, all too easily hurt, sick, and aimless. don't spare me my punishment, unless... unless it hurts you. which i don't think so highly of myself that i believe it will. if i break my back, split my skull... i will accomplish this. i will find a momentum i have found many times before, and this time i will twist my arms to hold its writhing body and secure it behind its head, lest it get away from me once more. this time i will not fail. this time i will not fall. this time i will let nothing stop me.
i will get my life back, get my results back, get my worth back, and maybe i will find the pride i used to have, so very long ago. i will not let tears stop me, unless they are not my own. i will not let the personal wants that are mine alone to overshadow the needs of my parents and my societies. i will handle these and not drop either even if they tear me apart, the way such insignificant things like food gone bad tear my systems apart. i have been strong before, even if what i have been for all this time past recent has been only a show, a form of bravado to 'show' what little strength i had left... i will let myself hurt, if only to become strong. just don't let me hurt anyone else while i'm at it. don't let me know you care anymore for my person, as that will make me complacent. don't give me anymore escape routes, or i will be tempted to take them. don't give me anymore face. denounce me, decry me, disown me if you so wish, but don't let me take it easy anymore. if there is anything anyone can do to help me at all, it would be to let me relinquish my school
club post, and in doing so allow me more time to renew my academic standing with twice the fervour. i will handle it regardless, handle all that is meted out and expected of me before i am relieved of this extra burden. it's been almost three years, and for almost two i've tried to get rid of it. now i accept it. i will come out of this as best i can while carrying it, until i am allowed to put it down. i will not put it down again without express permission. perhaps finding this strength will let me give my life the meaning again, and after i relearn my strength i will hold more meaning to me than what i used to hold. priorities may be cruel, but right now, i have given up the choice. and if i have to be cruel to anyone, i would choose to be cruel to me. i'm almost swallowing unchewed now, because i am running out of time. it bloody hurts, but i will hurt all the more in time to come should i not choose now as the time to find myself again. and it will hurt my family and all i've grown close to. it's not worth it, and so this pain, this minor hurt is. it will be worth it, one day when i can look myself in the eye and see me once more. i will not let my body forcefully rid itself of more than half of what i consume tonight, if i have to drink six more litres of warm water.
tomorrow i will pick up my admin card before ten and prepare for my classes on friday after the afternoon lecture, since c-programming is a point that needs to be worked on. lunch will not be more than half the 3-hour break and the rest will be spent on either schoolwork or clubwork. on saturday i will be at lavendar at ten and remake my ic, then go to buona vista for the ez-link card. by one i should be done. i will decrease my leaving home TORS time to 45 minutes, then half an hour. i will learn again the speed i used to have. i will not watch the soccer matches i cannot afford to, this time the expense will be there rather than on my grades. i will not let myself rest more than strictly necessary, and i will not sleep less than 6 hours a night. i will not stay up late doing what i want to do, be it drawing, writing or cg, unless such is necessary for my schoolwork, clubwork or immediate sanity. i will not forget what it is to enjoy, rather i will look forward to what i will enjoy, when i pass the test of this furnace i have brought myself to face. to harden the pot the clay must be fired, and so i will rid myself of the cold elements that have kept me from attaining this strength. i will not forget what the true objective of this test is, and i will not spurn anything that is asked of me, unless it conflicts
directly with my objective. let me take this test, test me yourselves, and take advantage of this test. i will make myself sharper, stronger and quicker. i will learn the concept of dedication from within, and the way to let nothing the body
does conflict with the intentions of the soul. self-denial must come from oneself, and from this self it shall. 2345, and here i end this post with an apology to those who've suffered, been inconvenienced and even taken punishment or reprimand as the costs of my weakness of self.
quick notes.
Monday, April 26, 2004 07:28 a.m.
...that i'd never gotten down to typing.
i'm wallowing in long-past-due deadlines, facing my cpro2 prog now, on the first day of study week.
yesterday after dinner with family @ J8 went to dome nearby and hunted down s_t. blew about 6-7 bucks, had a doubleshot mocha (did a great job) and a chocolate chip cookie. that was good stuff. hope to work there after my exams.... 'that' was also more than ten hours ago... need more caffeine...
to elaborate next time?: met with ed, rotted at bugis, korkor mentioned he ran into jon chua @ p.a. wonder how he is. wbat to get for kat. what do do with these two weeks. erkkpzzz coffee, need coffee, mus get...
gacked from myst's LJ nyaah ^^";
Wednesday, April 21, 2004 05:04 p.m.
green hair!? *boggles*
this one sounds more like me, sans the mentor bit... ^^";
kikumaru beam? nyah, this sounds soooo zato-1... o_0";;;
buchou's waiting for me. must go, or i'll be running right into next week desu. o_0";;;
belaaaated post desu. ^^"
Wednesday, April 14, 2004 10:20 p.m.
April 11 2004 sunday 1115 hrs
warning: gets high on oreo cheesecake.
yeah. found that out last night... my sis brought back homemade oreo cheesecake she made with her boyfriend, his sister, his brother and the
brother's girlfriend i think? not too sure... but dang was it good stuff ^____^"~ still more in the fridge... eheheheh. i mean hey, lent is over.. =P
Happy Easter to everyone applicable, and then some XD *ish happy*
brother has started playing war of the ring. o_0" somewhen last week i watched him go throught the tutorials with the most amusing looks of 'oh
man. oh maan... oh MAN.' while the tutorial masters were greatly amusing ("what were they thinking, sending an -elf- to work with a -dwarf-?")
the tutorials themselves, to my WCIII vet brother were forehead-slappingly dot-dot-dot. anyhow, he survived, and was last seen bashing spiders
in an elf mission to capture gollum. poor guy hasn't had time to do much this weekend, maundy thursday kara he was already spending hours in
church, coming home to sleep, going back, coming home some 16 hours later to eat, check email and sleep, 6 hours later back there again... the
guy fasted full-day for good friday as well... tsk. makes me feel so weak, heh... and then he served 2 consecutive masses last night, with
training in the morning (started at 9, he was due there at 8.15), ended prolly in the afternoon and then he was there again probably about 5+ for
the 7pm preparation... 7pm mass ended at about nine, nine plus, and there was another mass at 9.30, which ended way past midnight (83
candidates to be baptised apparently, and alot of mess to clear up for the servers) ...he came home sans food about one-odd, and somehow had
the energy (i think it was mindless playing at that point le haha) to play elves...
went for the seven pm after eating and walking around kino at liang court with kat... (why do i suddenly find it amusing that name and surname
are in the same sentence without actually being linked? o_0") i've gotten iruka and gaara figurines, and now owe her a total of $38.40 *stares at
figure* ...add the eddo bookmark and the grand total is $40.40... accck. x_X
am back in the choir, have told stephanie i don't know how much i can commit, but will be there whenever i can. practice apparently starts at
4.15 at the basement. good thing is that service won't end later than 6.40, so i can still go bugis for arcade and dinner if i want to, and still
expect there to be someone or other... bad thing is that i'll have to scoot from kknm at 3.30-3.45 to 4 latest (4 and i'll be late for practice), very
latest 4.45 and make it in time for mass. nya...? ._o"
have worked on bits of PoT spooniness, icons and a bit-of-angst fic. with fluff i guess. o_0" nyahh.
have to go wash up eat brunch and do homework (report AND presentation for I&T) and housework... jya~
from the unconnected comp...
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About me meme gacked frm kat who gacked from her cousin, filled in saturday night-monday night after getting turned from thief to elf. a coupla things filled in/changed/added good friday night.
YOUR
.Current Clothes: huge red-white-navy giordano shirt and old p.e shorts. double wristbands.
.Current Taste: H2o
.Current Hair: ponytail at mid-height. is sitting on my chair too. Is too long...
.Current Desktop Picture: Hot Chocolate Tezuka~ ^__^"~ ...ish fanart, but ish kawaii and waffy. *floats*
.Current Book: 2010 & 2002 textbooks. and 2008... can't afford to flunk na...
.Current MP3 in MP3 Player: Hymne by eRa, Yurameki by Dir en grey
.Current disc in DVD: None.
LAST PERSON
. You Talked to Online: #cosplay
. You Touched: Kat... i think she was hitting me for something i said... *laughs*
. You Hugged: does getting almost decapitated count? Kakashi
. You Kissed: Mother
. You instant messaged: Hong Liang from kendo, or Julian
. You Yelled At: Brother
. You Web cam with : No web cam
. You thought about: The person I thought about can't really be considered a person... *laughs*
ARE YOU
. Understanding: Mostly
. Open-minded: Yes
. Insecure: Yes
. Interesting: Possibly
. Random: All the time
. Hungry: Not really. i should be, though...
. Friendly: i guess?
. Smart: doubt it, but Possibly
. Moody: Quite
. Independent: Depends on mood, mostly i think.
. Organized: hahahahaa...
. Short-tempered: rather, maybe, i dunno
HAVE YOU EVER
. Been kissed: Yes
. How many times: I never counted
. Eaten an entire box of Oreos?: Yes, i think so
. Been on stage: Yes
. Dumped Someone: Yes.
. Been in a car accident: Yes
. Been in love: I think so
. Been Cheated: Yes
. Coffee or hot chocolate: damn. mocha?
. Xbox or Playstation: i own neither, and would be hard-pressed to compare. prolly PS though, more variety on games, although xbox has its
plusses too...
. Sony or panasonic: sony?
. Mexx or Banana republic: Neither.
. Guess or Gap: Either.
. Jeans or cords: Jeans. but cords ain't bad either.
. Sweater or hoodie: prolly sweater, unless i've braided my hair.
. T-shirt or long sleeve: Tee or longsleeve shirt? depends on the weather, i like them both muchly.
. Wool or cotton: Cotton
. Rose or Lily: Lily
. Rock or Pop: Rock!
. Everybody loves Raymond or That 70's show: (am not a very tv person.)
. Do you have a Girlfriend: No
. Do you have a Boyfriend : No
. Do you have a boy bestfriend : yup
. Do you have a girl bestfriend: Yes
. Do you have a bestfriend: *nods*
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Dark Traits meme gacked from Kat who gacked frm cousin again
NAME: eiji
DO YOU THINK YOU'RE NORMAL: hell No... *laughs*
DO PEOPLE FIND YOU STRANGE: Yes, pretty sure of it...
DO YOU BELIEVE IN GOD: Yes.
DO YOU SIN A LOT: Yes
DO YOU BACKSTAB: No
ARE YOU A GOOD FRIEND: I hope so
ARE YOU IN LOVE: *raises eyebrow*
ARE YOU YOUNG: Maybe
EVER BEEN A LEADER OF SOMETHING: Yes
EVER KILLED A LIVING CREATURE: Yes
LAST ODD THING DONE: I do so many of those lately... i think you'll have to ask Kat. Probably hearing "katsu no wa atobe" out of empty air while
surfing my pot gallery... although i didn't really -do- anything, per se...
DO YOU WEAR MAKE-UP: only for formal/stage/costumed events. else no. komatta mono.
DO YOU REBEL: Yes
EVER STARTED A FIRE?: No
DO YOU THINK YOU'RE EVIL: Yes! lolx
DO YOU LIKE LYING: It's become second nature to me, regretfully (well, most times, anyway.)
DO YOU REGRET: heh, yes. quite a bit...
DO YOU HAVE A BESTFRIEND: Yes
DO PEOPLE HATE YOU: Probably yes
DO YOU HATE PEOPLE: Probably Yes
CAN YOU KILL SOMEBODY: And stay perfectly sane after that? Chances are shaky, but probably yeah. i think.
DO YOU CUT YOURSELF?: not answering that.
EVER TASTED BLOOD: *smiles* I love the taste of blood *sees people edging away* But it's nice! *grins*
DO YOU CARE WHAT OTHERS MAY THINK OF YOU?: I shouldn't but I do. well if those others matter, then yes.
EVER DONE ANYTHING OCCULT: not sure
ARE YOU GOTHIC: Sometimes.
DO YOU SMOKE: No
CONSUME DRUGS: rarely, if at all
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"I" meme gacked from kat who gacked frm her cousin
I am not: a punctual person.
I love: too many people
I hate: myself sometimes. okay, alot of the time.
I fear: loneliness, losing myself perhaps. forgetting how to care.
I hope: I won't disappoint the people that matter.
I crave: more time. too much.
I cry: a lot inside.
I care: too much sometimes. *rolls eyes at self*
I always: try to try my best and end up trying my best abit later than would help much.
I believe: that one day I can accept myself for who I am. and that "i", that someone will be rather less unpunctual. and more disciplined.
I feel alone: when i can't talk to anyone about a no-way-out situation
I listen: to the voices in my head, and more.
I hide: from too many people, including myself. but mostly ex-lecturers and sensei, haha. from reality too.
I sing: whenever i darned feel like it lor. which is alot of the time...
I dance: whenever a beat makes itself felt..
I write: alot. of crap. and not.
I play: lotsa games, but rarely finish them properly. (NwN, WCIII... FFVII T_T) arcade/LANshop-wise, Guilty Gear and CS.
I miss: the days when my brother and i were close. paying 25c for a bus ride (now 80c). my old hard drive. my sec sch gang (all working,
uni or overseas now), missing people and various other things.
I search: for a meaning, for an answer, for a smile..
I learn: nothing I will ever use, and all sorts of (sometimes not) useless stuff i'm sure i wasn't mean to pick up on.
I feel: dead or alive. both and neither.
I know: I should concentrate on doing better. and yes, my project.
I say: that I will but maybe I won't...?
I succeed: in too little of I want to do so in and not enough of what I don't
I dream: of things I cannot understand
I wonder: why i'm doing this (no changes there)
I want: to sleep, to do this project and get done with it, a functioning netted comp, a working handphone, headphones, less inertia, more
time.... to try inui's juice. karupin would be nice too...
I have: not enough money to live on and too little life to live with. too much to do and not enough time.
I give: myself a headache. another two & a half hours to work on this crap (I&T report) before i go train, do
what i can manage of
prototype drawings, to bed and face more music tomorrow.
I fight: too damn much, and sometimes not hard enough.
I need: to sleep. more discipline. more time. more drive. less pride. etc, etc, etc.
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a few lines...
Friday, April 9, 2004 08:49 a.m.
have added karei to links! ^^"
bought the cloak cloth on wednesday at spotlight, teddy chamois or sth like that... now i keep thinking its too dark and i shoulda stuck to the caramel plush velour, lol... may get that anyway, if i've $$ enough, maybe like next month or so... (yeah, right. sigh. june is prolly more like it) also bought some inexpensive blue to experiment on the tunic first... spotlight should have fewer of these sales. they're turning me into a shopaholic. x_x';;;
gacked these images from trunks@ wordpainter.net, koped all my SoM cosrefs from there... both in-game and official, but they're using official, dakara... the caramel p.v be closer to the official art green elvy cloak colour... the cloth colour i bought is closer to the one on the blue elf... o_0";;; nyah. will be making the skirt part of the tunic longer than the first pic. that length be scary. i not be kat with the penchant and aptitude for miniskirts.. o_o";;;
*does not mind re-getting the cloth if need be... but right now concentrating on the blasted phone bill...* well, kaka seems to think the colour be okay... demo she hasn't seen the cloth itself na... o_o"~ uhkay, i oso grabbed some $5 red cheesecloth for the red sleeve of kurenai's white outfit. so spendthrift, and then i was dumb and deposited 10 to phonebill and now have no money to go out today... ez-link has enough for like one ride. waiting for kyo to come online so i can tell her i need to cancel... o_0"
ah yes. specialization results be out. i be in embedded systems design. not bad, considering i didn't even do the selection... was fully expecting to tio wafer fab... hengz sia. XD.
2096 (ruddy fishing rod) is due next friday, with report; I&T presentation on monday, will submit report tmr; CPro2 is due in completion on thursday, with report; need to prepare past year papers for next thursday's circuits tutorial; haven't done notes for e-comms; need to make brief notes for troubleshooting lab after the next lesson; and do up all my math tutorials. o___0";;; today chiong I&T. i've been slacking on my P.E...
ahhh. last night i completed a small load of PoT spooniness while waiting for the comp. shall show kat on monday, or pm them to her, since i doubt i'll be seeing her today... will get bashed quite badly, i think... XD want to put it on ff.net but not before she's seen it. anyway, i wonder if its submittable for sakana's pot doujin, will illustrations of course... =XXX
nyaaah, that's more than a few lines le... i go wash up & do work... mata ne.
0014 hours. apr 05 '04. monday.
Friday, April 9, 2004 12:48 a.m.
[Hoshi Souchirou as Son Goku - Infinity]
Passion of Christ is good. recommended for anyone in the faith, all twenty thousand denominations of it. also if one likes blood. ish good i guess. is quite macbeth-feeling, on certain themes: blood, omens?, lurking/dormant evil, betrayl, regret, politics and tough choices, hard decisions. yup. *quashes the inner lit student*
[Drugstore Cowboy - Beautiful My Way]
haven't heard this song in awhile. yesterday went with kat to met kyo and pastles after the PoT Affair, which didn't end though the sales did... ^^"; have finally heard the much acclaimed Ometto Samba (Kyappu to Bin) and *ahem* Chi-chi wo Moge (*coughboin'boin'cough* - by Parco Fulgore of Konjiki no Gash Bell) << wait til i get my hands on them and sic 'em on my sis! wahaha~ ...yeah, Takahashi Hiroki is a new favourite... XD *reminds self to go find more Okiayu... seems i've lost or misplaced my Treize, still not found Crawford, and hey, i wanna find Shigure XD ...and yeah, if Mukahi sings at all, i gotta go find it. or Fuchoin Kazuki. Infinity and Proud of My Lonliness (Son Goku) are naish, voice quality-wise, etc (yeah i do realize i've prolly said this all before...) met most of the PoT thread pple, they be neat, got Ani to draw more (i have samples! mwahahaha~) while i checked out the art of #19... had dinner at Long John's, the "roadside" one near DG MRT, then walked around Spotlight with Kat (rather, dragged her to and got dragged out, lol) after pastles and kyo went home first...
[Weiss - Beautiful Alone]
bought white and (a very rosy, over-healthy) skin colour felt... ne 'ka|, your zetsu be white or blue har...? *sweatdrops* if not white i'll go mess with hakuryuu first, like maybe after the exams XD but i'll try to finish it in time for the cosfest, then you can carry two hakuryuus around lol... anyway, went bugis after that, about 9.30 or so. my file whacked dust once i think, kuni twice before the oversianed fella got mildly worked up and snapped at me. so i was thinking "like, that wasn't even the beginning...?" but left him alone and did my usual watching/waiting for xx.
[Enya - The Council of Elrond (Aniron)]
[Enya - One By One]
apparently having lost an unhealthy (for him lah) 5 bucks (to a millia on 1.5, info added from 'kane, who informed me later what exactly he was so '%&@$^' over...) earlier, he cooled down and actually apologised. wah? o_0~" unexpected, but nice. mussed his hair extra (and didn't neaten it back) for being an idiot on the forums and went to gauge my lousiness on isuka. i suck at it, lol... spent 4 or 5 credits altogether, 2 on isuka (22, and 23 LOL terrible!) and 2/3 on 1.5. XX was hogged madly by dust/jawa, dust/gene or gene/jawa. i should almost thank me stars tongtian wasnt around...
[Malice Mizer - Le Ciel ~Kuuhaku no Kanata e~ (Live - Full Version)]
since i'm staying up to do my reports, (i *WILL* start in half an hour.) i shall go and wash my face, and do my pumping. have slacked another three days or so, so to make up, this week's are 40 pushups, 70 crunches. i know lah. not much lah. but must start small right? ^^";; keke, brb.
[Scorpions - Winds of Change]
[eRa - Ameno]
set ended. took alittle longer than usual, due to the added weight and the fact that grandma in the bathroom meant i couldn't wash up... if i had more time/fewer due/going-to-be-due/overdue projects/stuffz to do i'd go run in school haha. just bring extra clothes and socks. i've decided running/jogging in my boots be good light weight training. ^^"~ ...as it is i'm still trying to reach the 3-step momentum (can only take 3 once, then the rest of the flight's down to 2's again...) and perfect the 3-60 J-S without wrenching off my kneecap or dislocating it haha. timing, lah... XD ...haiz. i go le. jyaaa...
post- post. lol...
Sunday, March 28, 2004 01:39 p.m.
2330 hours. mar 28 '04. saturday.
[Enya - Book of Days (Original Irish Version)]
hearing the last strains of the track fade out, my hand stills on the mouse as it finally hits me that i'd spent the last hour and a half mindlessly playing spider solitaire and neglecting everything that needed to be done, to be thought and to be written down. or drawn.
[Koyasu Takehito - Unstable Feeling]
the melancholy of this song yanks hard at all the sore spots still being patched up inside, but it is all ignored in favour of a clear mind while i type this entry on the unwired computer. said computer's floppy drive had better be able to read/write something (anything at all) later. it currently deems 539kb of my most-oft disk unreadable, and three files handicapped. brother's not getting off the other computer yet, so i've awhile to go before i can test it out entirely.
[Baroque - Baby Baby]
it's not supposed to ache like that anymore, sheesh haha... i've decided to go with bro to the seven a.m service tomorrow, and then have breakfast and donate blood, before coming home to hog the computer for my due-on-monday project. (monday-or-i'm-screwed, more accurately.) ...(....) i can't take this song anymore.
[Sophia - Boku wa Koko ni Iru]
writer's blog updated again. or will be when i do. later lah... this song is nice, even if i can't catch all the lyrics... will check it out later. have a feeling knowing the lyrics won't do anything for my state of mind (more than mind, really, but...). i have to stop thinking. going to train.
[Evanescence - Away From Me]
has my winamp gone empathic as well, or do i just need more songs on this comp? probably the latter. but this one ain't bad at all. haha. first half of set done.
[Evanescence - Give Unto Me]
set ended. feeling alittle lightheaded, but okay. this feels like it goes nowhere, nowhere at all. the one person who might perhaps understand, from some experience, is the last person to talk to on this matter... :laughs.: how things got this :cancels 'fucked up': weirdly screwed is absolutely beyond me. really. i guess the long-time advice to myself aka the policy i (supposedly) live by: care all you want, have the crush or four, but don't ever fall in love... *laughs* man, i sound spastic XD ...no, i haven't fallen out of love in any way, nor have i shi1 lian4'ed per se... XD
[eRa - Divano]
finally, a lighter mood, and reflected by the winamp, too. ^^" i'll go type out the nonsense for writer'sblog later. right now i'll just ramble. ^_^ today... i pontenged kpo-ing on the triple-a & jmd activities (thereby not getting the needed info to update the board -again- >> whaddahell's wrong with me, board updates ain't even *that* hard a thing to do lor... -_=" ...will go do that before the writer'sblog then...) and skipped out on helping neko-chan with the obi-tying for the SP performance by the jmd pple. i shoulda gone there just now, on hindsight... i might've been able to catch them, but then again... *shrugz*
[eRa - Watermark]
spent the morning online until someone tripped the wire and rendered the modem rather useless, at around which time brother came back and i handed the blasted (okay, just password-protected, but that's such a pain...) pc over to him. went to do the housework, get a bath, wash my hair and managed to squeeze a line on the forum before panicking at the time and getting out of the house, at two. (like i was supposed to _meet_ them at two?!) called before i left but no answer.. eek. called again at bishan (after missing the bus and then the train...) and arranged to meet them at stabucks. thankfully they weren't there yet either...
[B`z - Konya Tsuki no Mieru Oka ni (Cello & Piano)]
[Enya - Paint the Sky with Stars]
did abit more of my sad-case CPro2 project flowchart at starbucks before getting nearly decapitated by the black mage. ^^";;; met the green mage and heal for the first time, (rather dunno wad to say to them, funny huh..) and sakana and black mage no need say lah... haha.. so we yakked, blanked and (got) dragged into lunch at pastamania... been awhile since i ate a ten-buck lunch... haha and hey! more cheese-happy eaters! XD kaka apparently empties half the pot into her pasta as well... *nods approvingly* XD! between her, heal and myself i think sakana got pretty o_0";;;-ed out... ^^";; but damn, food was pretty good.
[Apocalyptica - plays Metallica by 4 cellos - Enter Sandman]
mozzymozzymozzy. how i miss thee. *laughs* especially when the "lasagna" at splash n deckers in school's lasagna is 1/4 the price, but with virtually no cheese. -____=";;; top layer one mm nia. or so. *rolls eyes* ...cheat my money.
[Mirai - Open Up Your Mind]
in the course of lunch (more or less) i was steered in the direction of kalya, blue elf rather than shannon (white thief) for SoM. ^^";; they think i'd be better there -- trust their opinion/advice, partially coz i wouldn't trust my own XD ) ...felt abit bad that they came over to plaza sing to meet me, coz they were actually at somerset before coming... decided to tag along with them to chinatown and talked sakana into coming oso, and heal went along with us... so five pple went to look for three pple's cloth. *sweatdrops* ...so paiseh actually. i owe them ba... not that they're counting... ehheh.
[Darius Danesh - Colourblind]
managed to pick up the red cloth for Kurenai... maybe i'll change the cloth after a trial, no idea. haha i remember sending kuni this song just after he and gin started going out... so that he could think about her to it... *laughs* i'm so full of nonsense, honestly... but it's a good song for any lovestruck attached guy... *grinZz* ...and i'm not -that- inclined to suan, really.... *chuckles*
[Enya - The Celts]
:stoned the duration of this song away:
[Clay Aiken - This is the Night (Live)]
this guy's got an awesome voice. so anyway the amount of cloth is some indication i'll be working on the red one with the white sleeve. if i've enough time/material etc i *may* do the other version as well. not darned likely though. o_0";;;; heeroy's experience as neji will certainly come in handy, and be most appreciated. [notes-to-self: bandage tape...] scouted for the blue and brown material for the elf as well... rather expensive, but the others figure i won't need much. (the tunic be rather short. o_o";;;) but not decided on the material exactly yet. coz both are shiny/glossy types, which is out of the group's standardization. uhhh i don't want to be sparkling like a whatever either. o_o"||| so yeah. will go hunt down more cloth... -_=";; i figure i should hurry, don't wanna be "left behind", even if they've not decided on a date for the group itself yet...
[Clay Aiken - (Wild Card ''Sun goin' down on me'')]
[Enigma - Push the Limits]
[eRa - 03]
after that we went downstairs to mac for drinks/icecream and yakked, read/browsed/discussed comics, etc... i hope they don't *really* take the 'elf eh' thing to the forums... *will fall over... o_0";;;* discussion-of-sorts included the other team in the planning... muugen... rin. hmmz. *sweatdrops* i've thought about it, yes, but that there's actually a team planning it... overwhelmed and nervous and ecstatic all at once... and this is the second time the topic came up. ^^";;; however, the manji involved is keo badass. ._o" and the 'baddies'... anotsu's heeroy, and magatsu's kaka. o__o";;;can i get any more bullied? ._," think kaka suggested sakana be makie. whooo... ^^"~;;
[Emiko Shiratori - Melodies of Life]
[Enya - Tempus Vernum]
[Persona 2 - Eternal Punishment]
having left out many details that made the afternoon-evening more interesting (entertaining, too) and very worth getting out of the house for, i shall not leave out one annoyance that actually spoilt my record of not using the f-word today... clarke quay nel-mrt station is DEVOID OF DUSTBINS. yes sir/ma'am you heard me just right. not a single (usable, to throw a coupla measly drink cups away) dustbin in the whole underground area, both levels of it. i had to take an annoyingly long escalator up to ground level and ran back down afterward. blasted planning. i never thought dustbins would be nonexistent in any square 10m of singapore ground, not to mention a public transport station. 'tche.
[Queen - I Want to Break Free]
this song reminds me of sol badguy for some reason >> must be kat's undying torch for sol-millia fics, especially "it's been two hundred years" which sounds incredibly fluffy btw, but nice i guess ^^";;; which reminds me to mention what i did for my very unproductive friday... ehheh. took the train with heal back to bishan and then we headed our respective ways home. all conversation needs a start to happen, and good convi's with newly-met acquaintances are no different. ^^" ...is there a match tonight? i coulda sworn i heard a cheer.
[eRa - Ameno]
i was singing this in the lift on the way home just now. paid another twenty to starhub. it didn't occur to me to take the train with sakana to outram and drop by dover, for some reason and at the point of time. hadunno. either how mum's been nice about my skipping out on mass just now, even though i had said i was going down to support the 5.30 kids... o_o";; *guilt-trips briefly over self* tomorrow, anyhow. whoa. it's been an hour and a half. *stretches* muscles are all still whining about being pushed after months and months of -not- being pushed... haha but if i can actually get into it this time, hopefully that'll give me a boost in overall general. got to get all those (or at least some right...) un-genius bits of shikamaru outta my system someday/sometime/somewhen, and then i may be able to dislodge the late thing as well...
[Mirai - Open Up Your Mind (Karaoke Version)]
...haven't eaten much since i came home: bottla yakult, some pear, a banana and my supps, with quite some water. and some of brother's prawn and soup. not much at all. i suppose i should get something before i go to sleep. erjie just got home. :eyes clock - one a.m: dajie's not in tonight... :goes to survey kitchen:
[Gensoumaden Saiyuki (Hoshi Souichirou as Goku) - Infinity]
[Shimokawa Mikuni - Moving On]
i like his voice. ^^" ah YES. some of the time this morning on the comp was spent watching the cd kat lent me. ^^"~ *glomps you if you're reading, hee* it had 'band of princes', a short clip with two songs by the seigaku seiyuu. with cameos from... (uhhh. hyotei? fudoumine? haha hadunno... ^^";;;) and there was the LiveAction Musical Tenipuri backstage! man, the tezuka guy -is- good-looking... o_0"~ (*gulps at scary neko-aura* xiao3 ren2 bu4 gan3, xiao ren bu gan~~ *bows repeatedly, backing away and determines to take lessons from zhide...*) and yeah, there was fma gaiden in the cd as well, copied into harddisk for future perusal... kikumaru eiji's seiyuu has a niiice singing voice. am now more determined than ever to get "Tonde~ Mawatte~ Mata Raishuu~!" from kat... maybe tmr on icq? ^^"~ nyaaaa... *laughs* dajie laughed at the ryoma & karupin pic i showed her... "cute right cute right? *laughter*" "ehheh... its eyes are so.... :Huh...?: ...haha yah... cute tho.. ^^;;;" XD
[Baiser - Angel]
have always loved this song. shall write a fic with it and its translation one day. ^^" brother is laughing his ass off at some spaz movie someone sent him, apparently. we're both supposed to (guess the operative word) to have shut down our respective comps and gone to bed, especially him (mum doesn't know of my plan to go with him ehhe)... he'll have her out again in no time if he doesn't curb that laughter of his. does sound a good deal like my dad's though... and dajie's and mine, when we leave it as uninhibited (and sudden, not to mention loud) pronouncement of our amusement... oh man he's loud. o_0";;;;
[eRa - Sentence]
i shall go and do something else -- either board, expenses or file management while waiting for him to get off the wired comp. i've blogged long enough, i figure. this is going to be such a long post, what with all the playlist info... =X
...oh. and i realise i'm picking up stuffz from kat. 'brother' rather than 'my bro', 'the bro', 'ano baka' or 'kelv', etc for instance... o_0";;
friday, saturday, sunday, monday...
Monday, March 15, 2004 12:14 p.m.
friday. my circuits paper, not. my last paper of the lot, and i missed it. i suck, man. no mc summore, and all i could tell the sir just now at lab was that i wasn't feeling well, but didn't go see a doctor. best. anyhow. what happened was something lame like: after staying up all night partly mugging partly stressing (after finishing WCII and two tutorial Tiberian Sun missions, which was like 2am onward) and trying to stuff stuff into my head, i took ten minutes to check my mail and realised to my horror that i'd taken the wrong ten minutes. my sis'd taken over the bathroom. so as much as i rushed, nine o'clock (the half-hour cutoff time) found me standing 2nd in line at the taxi queue, having only moved one place in 15 minutes. so i went home to find that kat hadn't brought her phone and i couldn't exactly whine to her. not in real time, anyway.
bad test day, bad cab day, and a bad hair day too. bleedin' annoying. washed my hair again but it didn't help, evidently. whined to 'kai & akane via sms and got suanned, ended up replying something along the lines of not expecting sympathy from short-haired pple. i mean, the plight and pain of long-haired pple's bad hair days can only be felt by other long-haired peeps, was what i meant, but oh well. spent a few more hours venting my frustration on hapless NOD troops then decided to go submit my excuse & warning letters. it was 4-plus when i left home, then heard from the GG pair that they'd planted another flag at toa payoh. am not surprised in the least. they were at jubilee, so i decided to join them.
guess what, there's isuka there too. haha. spent two credits trying to get used to jap config on 1.5 and another two on isuka, one solo and one with 'kai. she's doing most of the work, i tell you. i'm especially lousy with the turn button and whatnot. on the way back i dabao'd dinner, and they mentioned that the amk CC had finally opened, and there was an iruka and kakashi poster there i should go see (read: get) ...and they brought me there. whee. ^_^" the store's still stocking, very obviously, but most of the standard CC stuff's already there. cool. the posters weren't all up yet, and i didn't flip through them all, but the one they wanted me to see was dead cool. iruka, sharingan kakashi and there was yondaime in the near distance, with a lovely backdrop of a silhoutted pagoda against a sunset. neeeaaatt. ^___^" so i bought it on the spot, 3 bucks and was considerably cheered up. and yes, suanned for the no sympathy thing. decided against pointing out that they'd picked up on the wrong meaning of my considerably double-edged post (noted on hindsight nia..) and thanked them. mwehehheh. even dajie thought the poster was cool.
met kat in school on saturday afternoon, finally submitted my excuse n warning letters and had lunch, then went to stare at corpses and bones and stuff... eighteen dollars of educational entertainment is more worth it when spent with someone else. like i'd go all the way to expo to see body worlds by myself anyway. (okay, so maybe i -would-, but...) yah, so we spent a few hours examining the cool stuff at expo, then took a bus (...i am -not- obsessesed with shikamaru. fullstop.) to pasir ris white sands (i love the place, dolphins everywhere. ^^") to drop by comics connection... after which we ended up at tampines mac since kat was going to be late for dinner with her folks and decided to cancel. countless nostalgic stuff was being played on the screen there, from backstreet boys' 2nd album to the bangles' just another manic monday to christina aguilera's genie in a bottle...
went to walk at century square after that, visited the other CC, and was sorely tempted to go on a poster-buying spree this week, since between the 2 CC's there was a buy x get one free (forgot the value of x) but all the posters were going for $3 each, and the naruto ones were soooo nice. x_x"~ dropped by the arcade too, it's got x1.5, xx and d&d. no isuka though. (saaaaddd~) we verbally bashed a cheapo maxi (SCII) user who was just mashing one button and barely even using the joystick. annoying little creep. kat headed home after that and so did i, resisting the temptation to drop by bugis (confirmed got pple i know there one lor) or meeting up with kor theyall (after the auditions thingy) and overall spending money. must save. too much to pay for/buy and too little $$$. speaking of the auditions... i already agreed to go see BW with kat long long before i heard of the audits... and anyway i hear there's to be yet another a coupla weeks down. hmmm. i dunno.
[edit the next two days in later. getting chased off. -_="]
quick 4-min post.
Wednesday, March 10, 2004 04:59 a.m.
screwed my 2010 badly yesterday, left a page of naruto art for thelecturers' amusement (more like my own, obviously) and spent the evening hanging around bugis with kat. ^^"~ was fun, rather... finally saw that insanely long thing on her blog -- shall do that when the CT's are over. or somewhen. am kinda touched (okay, sheepishly amused, but ah well) to realize how many times my name appeared there on her blog/lj =P ...still, things are worrying, and stuff. once this upload ends i shall shut down the comp and go mug maths. and maybe sleep in the clubroom later...? jya, mata na...
...finally archived. ehheh.
Saturday, March 6, 2004 03:34 a.m.
Which Naruto Character are You?
quiz by orangeday.net
WOOHOO~ ^_^"~ stolen from 'ka|'s blog, and i so honestly didn't cheat. hehehehheh. ^^"~ neato first pic after an archive refresh, ne? ^^
